Friday, March 25, 2005

JUST PLAIN ANGRY!

I am so angry!! Angry at everyone!!

Today is a public holiday. I asked Kakak out today but she said she wanted to do some sewing for her wedding. Then I asked Aiza out which I I already brought up during the week. But she do not want to go as well.

I FEEL SO LOW!

Aiza asked me if I was angry and I answered "No." But I knew the real answer to that.

I am confused. We can really get along with each other on the telephone or when in school. However, whenever I asked her out, she do not seemed to want to. Am I that boring???

I will not cry. Why do I always have to go through this??? Why am I always caught in such a situation???

I feel so pathetic at times like this.

I have to take reponsibility of my life. I must! It is time I change. Change my mindset and alter the level of dependency which I am always placing on another. This can't go on.

But I can't help feeling angry!!! Angry at Aiza, at Kakak, at life and at myself. ANGRY! JUST PLAIN ANGRY!

ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 comment:

sha said...

"The miracle of friendship speaks from one heart to another, listens for unspoken needs, recognizes secret dreams, and understands the silent things."