Saturday, October 28, 2006

My Vietnam

I never knew how swollen one's eyes can be from excessive crying.

I could not take it anymore.

Upsetting the elders have never struck one's mind. I hate those who are rude and does not appreciate their parents.

It is frustrating that no one person can really feel the anger, sadness and disappointment I felt.

I can repeat the incident to a million people but I can have them feel me.

No one but ALLAH s.w.t knows my genuine emotions. I can hide it but HE knows and only HE understands.

I thank HIM for the lovely friends I have who would take the time out to listen to me cry and rant.

You know who you are. I thank you. It was such a nice gesture. Thanks for calling and listening to my ranting and spasticated crying voice. I am sorry you had to hear all that rubbish despite being at work. I know that none of it made sense but you still took the time to listen. You gave me just what I needed. Thanks so much. Whoever you will be with in the future, that person is extremely lucky.

As for me, I am pushing real hard to realize my childhood dreams. I shall not give up. After what happened, I am determined to make it a reality more than ever. I am not wanting to run away from trouble. I just need some time away. I need to grow up on my own and emerge victorious in this battle of life.

I love my family to death but there is only so much that I can take. If it is money you want, then money you will get. My financial situation has improved. Alhamdullillah. But I guess money makes the world go round.

" I am at war.. Life keeps on dropping bombs and I keep score....This is my
Vietnam..."

- Pink

2 comments:

Sharinna said...

Oh dear..i am sorry that you have to face this part of sadness in your life.
But don't u worry my dearest...,
it will be yr past soon.
Stay calm and you will think better that way.
Good luck, my dear.

Amby_OFFsPrinG said...

Liza to sharinna - thanks so much, kak sha. really appreciate the encouragement. heartaches and pain r part n parcel of life, i suppose.