I cannot stand your face

Half of my Father's Day Sunday was burnt because I had to attend a Family Day that my centre held this morning. Fortunately, the weather was beautiful. I really wished that I was sitting by the beach instead of being involved in the event. Sighs. Anyways, It's over. But there is one thing that bothered me till now.

Frankly, this thing has been on my mind for a very long time but it's just now that I bothered to analyze it. I feel like people cannot stand my face when they look at me. No, this has nothing to do with my confidence. I am sure of it. I may not be someone who has oozes confidence but I do have faith in myself. So confidence is definitely out. Why do I say this? I mean, I'm bothered because people react quite negatively when they see me. I don't know. It's just that feeling I get. And no, I am NOT being paranoid!

I told Mak about this. She advised me to do dzikir and to constantly recite this particular prayer that Mak Noi gave us. And it's true, you know. My mother always recite the prayer that she recommended me and it worked on her. Wherever she goes, people will just naturally smile at her. So much so that Bapa and Mak Noi always asked if she know the particular person whom she just smiled at. Hmmmm......It's about time, Liza