Even superheroes bleed.

I have been battling with weight problems all my life.

When I was younger, I felt overshadowed by my sister's lean frame.

Now, even after losing 10 kgs with no medication or slimming programs, I still feel overweight.

Yeah, my weight fluctuates every now and then.

I mean, no surprise there.

There are countless times where I went overboard with my "occassional" treats.

The numbers still go up by one (or two) and down the same way.

No matter what, I noticed that I will always end up at my happy weight.

Alhamdullillah.

I am thankful.

Truly.

MyBabyLuv don't see the need to reduce those numbers. (Alhamdullillah)

And I agree with him - sometimes.

Yeah, I hear you.

I should stop harping on my weight.

But I cannot deny the fact that I DO care about my weight.

I have lived the life of an overweight woman and I do NOT wish to go down that road again.

Na'uzubillah.

You may find it as an excuse but it is very hard for me to think of myself other than what I know myself to be.

I may have shed the pounds (and my physique as the core evidence) but I still look at myself as what I was before when I look in the mirror.

Astaghfirullah.

Strange, huh?

Humans are never satisfied with ALLAH's blessings.

I choose NOT to see this as a problem but more of a challenge.

The mind is extremely powerful.

It can work to your advantage but it can also destroy you.

As silly as this may sound, I feel the need to focus and train my mind and vision to perceive myself as how my loved ones do.

They see me as someone who is determined and mentally strong. Someone who knows what she wants and will go all out to get it while still praying to the one Supreme Being that will make it all happen. Someone who is cheerful and bubbly and loves to see the positivity in life. Someone who is neither overweight nor underweight. Someone who weighs just right.

How liberating that sounds.

Why was I so blind?

Without the past, there is no future, right?

ALLAH showed me the rewards of having faith in HIM as well as the power of determination by letting me went through the "transformation".

Why was I so blind?

ALLAh created us perfect but we make out who we want to be.

And I want to be satisfied.

Satisfied with my achievements and my physique - small, medium or large.

I want to be satisfied with that - and believe it.

India Arie - Beautiful Flower

Song lyrics

Ladies and GentleMan..

I managed to find my favourite scene in the latest and most hyped-up movie of the summer - The Dark Knight.

Why so serious? Relek ah babe.

The movie was pretty good but I would not spend my last dollar on it.

It's quite sad to say but I believe that the only reason why the movie receives so much hype is obvious - because of the late Heath Ledger.

Like MyBabyLuv commented, he felt that the movie was mainly focused on Joker.

True, Heath did an amazing job as Joker.

Far, far different from the past Jokers. Gothic I am not but I sort of liked how Heath portrayed the darker side of Joker.

He accentuates Joker's ability to manipulate non-believers to the point of making them doubt and turn against themselves. Joker was psycho but an extremely intelligent one at that.

To be able to convince audience proves Heath's credibility as an actor.

It is certainly not an easy task to change oneself -mentally, physically and emotionally - in order to put on the shoes of a personality far from your own.

Maybe the late Australian actor did took the role too far. So much so like he allowed the Joker to take over his life and start living and thinking as the incredibly clever psycho.

Who knows? Sighs.

No worries, location is not revealed.

Apparently, she used to stay at the block of flats opposite mine.

Apparently, my parents knew her parents and hers knew mine.

Apparently, the lady whom we saw the other day at Tampines was her mother.

I am quite ashamed to say this but when Mak said the things above, I did not really believed her but I acknowledged it anyways.

Up till now...

Another neighbour came by our house some time last week to send the wedding invitation below.

Norfasarie & Baihakki's Wedding Invite. You going?

So I guess it's all true then.

Hehehehe...

In order to feel less guilty about not (fully) trusting what Mak said all those times, I treated her to Swensen's.

Baju yang import dari London tu dah sampai belom, Mak? Takut nanti tak glamour pulak...hehehe

Our tanned backs as remembrance

What do you do with two months of school holiday?

You drag your boyfriend to the Botanical Gardens on his non-working day!

Okay, that may not exactly be what a sane girlfriend would do but I have lost any common sense since I hit puberty.

That's why we managed to capture shots of some girls doing....things.

Lady On A Hammock

Girl On A Swing

Girl On A Bike

Hehehe...Yup, we were dissappointed too.

Though the sun was scorching hot, we enjoyed the day.

I certainly enjoyed every single second of it.

How can I not?

Service with a smile

So what if the paper he held was not enough to shade my whole body from the natural heat?

It's the thought that counts, darling.

Not everything has to be perfect.

Grateful still.

3 whole days of tying cable ties, smiling like a fool to customers (Hi, Sir...Good morning, Sir...Have a great weekend, Ma'am), entertaining typical Singaporeans (Eh cannot further discounts ah, I buy so many. 1 book 50cents lah. $2 dollars so expensive lei) went by very quickly with the company of two strangers who turned out to be such great company.

Dumb & Dumber - tapi budak NUS/NTU. Who's calling who dumb,huh?

Though my energy was squeezed till the last drop, I enjoyed my first part-time assignment and at the end of it, I am thankful for the amount I earned.

Alhamdullillah.

However, what motivated me to endure the 3 days was a surprise visit from an unexpected person.

Si mamat yang hayun tangan dia tinggi-tinggi bila main bowling.

Muahks!

MyBabyLuv, I appreciate the surprise visit. If not for you, I would have just called in sick for the following two days of my part-time assignment.

The whole point of going for a massage is to relax tense muscles, yes?

But I came out of last week's impromptu 30 minutes massage session with aches and pains.

I guessed I kind of forgot that lesser body fats means lesser effort strength when massaging.

Bye Bye Nickie

I would if I could but I'll be honest because I cannot claim all the credit.

It's not just me but the whole world knew.

And I do mean the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

I swear I was not being pessimistic but it was bound for failure.

It was expected.

I think I gave it 4 months?

But I guessed wrong.

I was not expecting it to be this soon.

Rich people may not necessarily make the best decisions.

At the end of the day, they are just human.

To err is human.

Oh well, Nick, fret not, life goes on.

So Mariah, who's next on the list?

CompOnLap

One by one, my prayers are being answered.

Syukur alhamdullillah.

The reality of my dreams seemed too far-fetched to ever being realised.

But I knew at the back of my mind that one day, it will all come true.

Bizarre as it may seem, HIS voice never failed to remind me to keep having faith.

And I did.

Faith was what kept me going.

Faith was what finally enabled US to purchase a piece of technology that will keep us connected to the whole wide world.

Syukur alhamdullillah.

I'll exercise tomorrow.